Monday, January 22, 2007
{ 4:21 PM }
working life was never part of my plan
but why do i have to go through all those shit
people often ask me how come i'm working two jobs
how do i answer them
do i have a choice to have two jobs
maybe i should state it clearly here.
my parents are not supportive of my education.
my parents dun give me $ anymore.
i have to earn to pay whatever bills i have
and to come n think, if i really wanna continue my studies, who is going to pay for it ?
my own expenses, transport and those necessary things.
i'm really tired.
totally drained off.
why can't you guys just understand me
for once.
i know i don't express my feelings to you . to who i can tell all my problems
he's up there,knowing what i'm going through. but being called my frien, do you ?
all of you have the support of your family members, i don't have
do i belong to this family or that ?
or do i even have a family in the 1st place
i really feel that this world is not fair.
so what if i graduate from a private school ?
so what if i don't have a cert from a local poly?
that does not make a professer.or a genius ?
now i have to make a choice.
commitment to the stones and also a full time job
which is more important
i've been really praying
i don't hear anything from that little voice
i'm lost
totally lost.