Sunday, December 23, 2007 { 2:32 AM }

i can finally access to the cyber world again telling the world how i am feeling now.
i feel totally shit.crapped and hopeless.
this feeling has been with me since that day. i made out the mess myself, and now i have to clear the shit and the mess myself as well.
i have no one to turn to now , well, that explains why i have to turn to online bloggin .
i wan to cry out loud. my heart is so weak now, my strength of pillar is gone and he's the man that i really love.
no one has shown me or taught me how to love and really love your partner wholeheartedly.
i'm listen to class 95 now and they're really playing those songs that makes me even more weak
its all about love songs.
baby, if you're reading this now, this is really from the my heart. i wan to tell you so many things. but i'm afraid of the ego side of you.
i know you don't wan to show me that side of you , but i guess i'm seeing it now.
the past few weeks for me is totally shit. i feel so weak without you beside me
i feel so lost.
the day when you went away, it was the most horrible day for me in the whole entire life living in this lonely world for me.
i dun wan you to think that i make you learning experience becoz of yr previous gfs.
you've showed me what is love all abt, but i guess i only knew the true meaning only when things start to happen and start to change for me.
i love you and its true. things has ordy change and wld be the same again like how we use to be in the past, i really dunoo. i have no clue at all.
i know whatever i say it useless, becoz words don't mean anything to you ordy .
i can only show and to prove it to you .
i have to be strong now even though at times i really feel like giving up, but i can't bear to see us separate.
it hurts me now when i see you falling ill and you don't wan me to take care of you .
it just hurts me so badly.
i really got no one to turn to now.
i'm really trying to be a better gurl now.
i wan to change..
change for us and also for our future
i really meant it when i told you that i wan to go register for rom
i'm nt kiddin.
you might think i'm jus taking it for fun but no
i really mean it
i know it takes time for us to get back again, i'll wait no matter what
but i really do hope you give me a last chance to really prove what i meant was for real
like the song A1 sang:
Please give me one more try for the sake of our love
Let's give it one more chance coz I can't give you up.
I can't live one more day without you in my arms
I could never find another like you.

i can neveer find another man who loves me as much as i love you
never
all i ask is just one last chance.