Friday, May 16, 2008 { 1:13 AM }


haven been bloggin for sometime..
haven found the right reason to blog or maybe i should say now i've got the reason to blog becoz
i've got no one to turn to ..
everyone sooo busy with their own work .. those should be wrking are wrking ordy, those suppose to be going to sch are attending classes everyday except for me
i guess i'm the one leading the abnormal life.
when my friends ask me out i gave the reason that i'll be wrking
and when i'm free trying to get my friends out, they would be wrking ..
everyone grown up now..they lead their own life and settle their own things n shit..
i'm clearing my piece of shit everyday...
i'm really worn out..sick n tired
at work, i've got no one to turn to, to pour out my sorrows, my complains.
i'm at that stage feeling so lonely and down.
back to home, i lock myself in this lonely room of mine, facing the com listening to songs.
talking to people whom i call friends but do they consider me as their friend ?
i have long forgotten those people whom i call true friend
who are they ?
i'm really feeling so lonely and down
feeling very depressed, upset everything and everything
feeling very lost, feeling so demoralised
can someone send me some direction to follow ?

ever since there's no more cornerstones.. there's no more sense of belonging that i feel b4
i'm sorry gurl if i've got to call you almost everytime jus to talk to you
i guess you're the only one who knows me, really !
you have given me promise of a fren, who promised to be there for me all the time
i'm sorry if i have to be a pain in the a**
sorry guys, i wanna let you all know this:
i'm so glad tat i make it to shabs birthday dinner tat night
even thou dinner was ex n little, but the friendship has filled me with joy
which almost made me cry becoz after sooo long. we finally met up
almost everyone dearest to me was there..

when would it be the next time tat we ever meet again ?
PGs : when can we ? when ???

if you're are my frien ?
can you please tell me again ?

thank you ..